Mental Health Check
Welcome my anxiety lovers hope your day was great as for mines it was just that. I started writing on this last night, but I ended up going to sleep because I was loaded. Jesus, I don’t ever want to be that high again it seems like it would never cut off. Child do y'all be that high all the time because I just felt dumb and I’m already that I don’t need no help in that area. Whew.. This new weed is something serious like child ion like that.
But as for yesterday I felt someone trying to breach into my energy field that suffer from social anxiety or some form of PTSD. From being on the opposing side it felt like you guys had given your power away for other people to control your energy. It was like I had seen how your power can be easily dismissed because of the fear to shine your light in people’s face. And when I say that I say in the most non arrogantly way.
Your light it is the way you speak, you walk, and carry yourself energetically on the inside that most people think its outwardly. Yes, its true in order to feel good you have to look good but if it is your soul that is craving for something soothing or emotional developmental then now its time to get comfortable with you. Now I know for many that can be hard thing to do. Because when it’s come to things you like or love you maybe once seeked an emotional response from people who didn’t quite comprehend or lacked emotional depth.
I get it when I was down and out, I had felt that a lot of people had counted me out, but I recognized that many people had problems like me they just occupied themselves with things. Healing and talking about feelings are somethings that many isn’t comfortable with. Hell I’m 26 and still think men got the cooties but be ready to.. Never mind. I’m a great listener but expressing my own isn’t a problem its just finding the right person who doesn’t talk to much.
And when I say talk too much, I mean people who listen with sympathy ears. Those people who look for themselves in my story and not seeing how it socially, mentally, emotionally, or physically impacted me. That’s something that many people haven’t mastered. Because you have people who listen but don’t respond because they don’t know what to say. Those people should be valued as well because if they keep your secrets, hold you accountable, and try they best to understand you then you got a solid person.
But you do once in a lifetime run across someone when you have your high moments when life is good, and they just know how to suck the life out you. The conversations is either negative or they find a way to take from your energy because they cant stand to see someone happy other than themselves. Y’all done heard them comments before like where you are going with that on when you were feeling yourself and it seemed awkward. O, I know you second guessing your whole outfit now based on one comment and now you can’t take a compliment from someone.
My guys that is what it is like for people who suffer with social anxiety. I mean you shouldn’t have to edit yourself continuously because as much as you want to be free, they want to be too. But sometimes it’s takes other people a moment to get comfortable with their own mind and heart. And for some people it can cause communication delays and emotional blocks because they are constantly in a state of trying to appeal to your emotional dialect other theirs. People always preach self-confidence but its not as easy for many because child.
Y’all know that man I don’t like he is the most insecure MF thing that walk this planet. And people think just because he be out here gossiping and keeping drama up between me and peers that’s he’s confident sweetie that man keep up shit so y’all wont figure him out. Go read about a narcissist and how we can identify it within ourselves.
But let me get back on track because everybody isn’t looking to be confident from an outside perceptive. Society teaches us this but why do we have a whole new generation of people who are emotional intellectual while suffering from some form of mental illness. Most people think it starts with the body, but it truly starts with the mind. Why do you think those people who are manipulative and like to play mind games likes to receive information about you? Because in order to kill off your spirit you have to infect the mind first.
Example: I’m watching Beauty Shop yesterday and they were having a conversation about plastic surgery and how it was perceived to be a white woman’s thing. In that day and age, it was. She went on to make comment stating you don’t have to do all that when you’re blessed. i. e black. If you look up in this day who do you see majority of the time on the doctor’s table.
Hell, I still want my ass done and a ************ ain’t gone shame me bout it. Society has this way up pitting woman against each other that now you have women of another race going off getting big asses and taking on black women features. Now I know some women are naturally blessed regardless of race but still this is a dynamic at play.
The fact that black women where never taught to be valued outside of physical beauty you now have women getting surgery just because. To them its like Pringles once they pop the fun don’t stop. The problem isn’t the surgery it was the fact they didn’t value them on the inside, so they keep going back to the doctor trying to find them in someone else.
Due to men being carnal and miss me with the whole a nigga ain’t influence me well according to the physiology aspect we all look to be accepted in some way shape or form. With social media being the biggest mind control tool on the market baby I wouldn’t love myself either if everybody I follow is worldly. Meaning I always feel like I’m left out. I don’t follow people who push this motive because I know they didn’t sign up to be motivational speakers or influencer's. But some way or somehow they are influencing or impacting you on some social level.
Baby y’all better start blocking, muting, and cleaning up your timeline. You know how y’all say, y’all gone cut them fake ass hoes off do it in virtual world it would save you some energy. Because while your busy building you back up you have to make sure that you aren’t picking up the same things you put down. In the spiritual world they call it karmic’s, in the 3-d they say they always do that, and the elders just say they’ll learn.
You really don’t want to fall into these categories because people ain’t gone want to help you because they gone think you are not trying to help yourself.
REMEMBER TO BREATHE IN THROUGH YOUR NOSE WHILE FILLING UP YOUR LUNGS AND BREATH OUT THROUGH YOUR NOSE AND SUCK THE AIR BACK IN. YOU ARE CALLING YOUR POWER BACK.
DON’T DO IT FOR MORE THAT 60 SECONDS AND WHEN YOU DO IT MAKE SURE YOU ARE SETTING INTENTIONS OVER YOU.
LET’S START WITH SOME SOLAR PLEXUS WORK, INNER CHILD HEALING, FOODS THAT ARE HIGH IN FIBER. THE PURPOSE IS TO FEED YOUR INNER CHILD. LITTLE KIDS HAVE A WHOLE LOT OF UNNECESSARY ENERGY. YOU NEED TO BUILD THAT BACK UP WITH YOU.
BECAUSE WHILE YOU’RE HEALING AND TAKING EMOTIONAL HITS YOU GONE NEED SOMETHING TO WITHSTAND THE STORM. BECAUSE CHILDREN NEVER GIVE UP UNTIL THEY PARENTS DO OR LIFE CONTINUOUSLY TELLS THEM TO.
WATCH WHO WATCHES YOUR KIDS. WHETHER IT BE MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY, PHYSICALLY, OR SPIRITUALLY.
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