Living With Your Mental Illness
So last night I’m scrolling down YouTube trying to figure out what chakra alignment sound I was going to listen to, and I found one. Now I go to the comments because their always seemingly positive and came across one young lady comment saying she wanted to end it all because of her anxiety. My mind first went to yikes because all she was looking for is some sort of help to mange her anxiety. She didn’t want to take her antidepressants anymore. Which can be a dangerous game for some people because they rarely talk to their doctors about lowering the prescription. For some people, the medication gives them a sense of paranoia because they’re not thinking and being happy and calm is foreign that they still panic.
Preferably I think starting any new medication should be on the day someone has a day off from work before they go back into the real world to see how they function. But come on some people don’t have that luxury of being able to do so. After this whole week that has passed your girl has been drained and irritable as a child. My sleeping schedule throwed off and drama has been on the rise talk about annoying. In the meantime, someone was trying to breach my aura to find a place to place their burdens. And boy was that a fight and hassle getting them away and off of me. It was this stagnant, lower vibrational, and a worrisome energy. It threw off my eating habits like it had me thinking should I go piss on stick. That’s how uncomfortable it was to me.
But back to the comment I had seen like most people who suffer with mental illness be so focused on trying to undiagnosed themselves that they fail to take into consideration themselves. I wanted to ask where you’re going, who are staying with, and last but least what’s going on? Do you know how many people suffer with mental illness in the U.S.? About 450 million are suffering from mental illness at this time. When I first started writing my book the numbers were way lower but still in the millions. Geesh. I stopped myself because I didn’t want to open a portal for that conversation and plus, I was drained I mean I have been dreaming about a beach vacation. Or a new home with the first 3 days of no kids, wine, and meals for me only.
So, how could I ask a question when it was going to come off as false concerned when actually I wanted to go to sleep. And I thought to myself do you know how many people that are looking for support and are met with people who have real life issues going on that they come as if pretending to care. When in actually they care its just life is happening so fast that they barely have time for themselves to be available for someone else. I mean people who suffer with mental illness be so focused on trying to live a regular normal human life and fail to stop and see how most people don’t even have it together. And the people they aspire to be like barely have it together they just don’t have a diagnose being carried with them 24/7. I think people who suffer with mental illness fail to recognize where they are with having mental illness.
Feeling like some outcast when actually you’re not you’re just a more defined color that illuminates the sun and moon that shines brightly. When you got your diagnosis what did you do? Where you shocked or you were trying to justify the behavior you have been displaying? Did you feel welcomed or reasoned by people who were accustom to your behavior? Did they give you passes to make you feel like less than a person and only use your mental illness against you when they go tired of you?
Do you even feel like you exist at this moment? I wanted to say life is hard and there are people who are built ford tough to help you, you only have to be ready to receive the help. Unlike most people the help isn’t going to force themselves on you and making you feel more pressure. Life is precious but in the eyes of someone who feels tortured by their own soul life it can seem long and demented. It’s just deciding if you want to let the light in and see your true worth. Most people think love has to come from an interpersonal relationship meaning you have to be with someone to feel valued, seen, and understood. That when someone who is a friend or just and acquaintance that is trying to uplift or share niceties it can be seen as invaluable because of the love and support you think you suppose to get from people.
As humans we have a way of determining how we want love and fail to recognize the love that is given to us in many ways from those people who are smaller than us in our minds. I just wanted to say taking your life isn’t an option it’s a short cut and quitters don’t win or lose. Its still undefined. I mean you can’t change the diagnosis, but you can change the way you live with it.
So, the next time you feel overwhelmed I’ll give you some tips to help you out and honestly, we can live chat at any time of the day I’m here.
TRY TAKING SOME TIME FROM SOCIAL MEDIA. IT CAN BECOME OVERWHELMING FOLLOWING NEGATIVE THINGS. IF THERE ARE THINGS YOU ARE INSCURE ABOUT FOLLOW PEOPLE WHO HAVE CONFIDENCE AND A UPLIFITING SPIRITS.
CLEAN UP YOUR SOCIAL MEDIA ANYTHING OR ANYONE WHO IS A TRIGGER NEEDS TO GO. ON THE OTHER PROJECT I TELL PEOPLE ALL THE TIME TO CUT ME OFF BECAUSE IT IS A NO HOSE BAR OVER THERE AND IT CAN BE TRIGGERING SOME DAYS.
WRITE FIVE- 10 POSTIVE THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF ON STICKY NOTES AND STICK THEM ON YOUR MIRROR FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE. SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO SET THE TONE FOR THE DAY WITH THE WORDS YOU SAY AND SIMPLY REMIND YOURSELF.
YOUR BODY GIVES YOU WARNINGS BEFORE AND ANXIETY ATTACK IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN. SO, IF YOU KNOW THE SIGNS THEN FEEL FREELY TO EXIT SATGE LEFT UNTIL YOUR PREPARED TO COME BACK. IF NOT JUST LET IT HAPPEN DON’T FIGHT IT JUST LET IT HAPPEN. YOUR BODY HAS TO PURGE OUT THOSE EMOTIONS.
IT’S OKAY TO FEEL EMBARRASSED BUT ASK YOURSELF DO THE PEOPLE AROUND ME KNOW ME ENOUGH. TALK THROUGH YOUR EMOTIONS IF YOU CAN.
EAT, DRINK, AND GET SUNLIGHT, IF NOT MAKE SURE YOU STAY HYDRATED.
MUTE ALL TRENDING TOPICS THAT CAUSE YOU STRESS. I WILL COMPLETLEY SHUT MYSELF OFF FROM THE WORLD WITHOUT ISLOATING MYSELF. IT IS PEACEFUL IN ME NOW.
CUT OFF THE TV, CHANGE THE MUSIC YOU LISTEN TO, AND TRY TO LAUGH. IF YOU CAN TRY CLEANING UP YOUR ROOM.
JOURNAL OR VOICENOTE WHEN YOU CAN ON BREAK AT WORK, AT HOME, AFTER MELTDOWNS, AND BEFORE BED. ITS BETTER OUT THAN IN.
AND LAST BUT LEAT FEEL FREE TO TALK TO A COUNSELOR, THERAPIST, AND A PSYCHIATRIST.
I LOVE YOU WHEN I GROW UP, I’M GONNA HAVE SEX WITH YOU. (SIDENOTE IT’S A MEME BY ALL MEANS I DON’T MEAN THAT.)
