Remembering To Work On You

As the season continues to move on allow yourself time to grief. The holidays are around the corner and most people are yearning for more intimacy such as having a more personal relationship with those in there life. It is okay to allow yourself to be free to feel, to laugh, to smile, to cry, to move, and basically accept life as it is so you can move on into the person who need to be. As I sat outside the other day I was humped over in my chair, well because I always have someone who is being nosey always trying to see what I'm looking up, writing, or even saying. I thought to myself to sit up straight so the weight of the world can get off of your shoulders.

Now granted I have been tired, emotionally exhausted from dealing with drama, and annoyed with humans because I need some space. I need time for me I don't know what is up with this whole thing of people thinking your free time is always supposed to be occupied with their things. Child, this move will be best damn thing I have had or done for me in a long time. I haven't been able to journal or emotional express my feelings in a safe outlet so my body has just been in slump. So, the one day I had off I said to myself sit up and get the folks issues off of you.

Some people fail to recognize that the conversations you engage in can be draining especially if their intention aren't pure. Some words people say can bring you down or feel you up, especially those passive aggressive comments that you know is supposed to be shady. That shit is annoying that's why some of us be drained from dealing with individuals who are like this on a day to day basis. I have been at a point in my life for so long that has been emotionally uncomfortable for me that I don't even care no more. About the news, drama, gossip, think pieces, whose pretending to be whose friends, enemies, foes, and betrayals. Let them have it, its their shit child I'm just focused on me.

This Wednesday I thought to myself about the problems that where adding on to my life that were the nouns. I said what do they do for me, they don't pay for tarot readings, they don't pay for sessions, they don't subscribe to my YouTube, or my favorite try to rob me of my time so they can get help for free. You know what I do avoid that shit because you get what I choose to give. Because those relationships do not involve me they involve what I can do for them.

So, if you find yourself in place where the weight of the world is on your shoulders relax, take a deep breath, and sit up straight and say the weight of the world isn't mines to bare. In the words of the old folks hold your head up because you ain't got nothing to be ashamed about. So, shoutout to you for finally choosing you and it may feel a little different but that is okay because this is the beginning to your chapter.

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